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"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

Mi'ma'amakim - From deep Depths

  • Sep. 20th, 2009 at 2:06 AM
Bilal


Mime'amakim kar'ati elaich boi elai
beshuvech yach'zor shuv ha'or be'einai
lo gamur,
lo ozev t'aamaga beyadaich
sheyavo veya'ir lemish'ma
kol tz'chokech.

Mime'amakim kar'ati elaich boi elai
mul yare'ach me'ir et darkech shuv elai
nifrasu venamsu mul
maga shel yadaich
be'oznaich lochesh sho'el:
Mi zeh kore lach halailah - hakshivi
mi shar bakol elaich - el chalonech
mi sam nafsho shetehi me'usheret
mi yasim yad veyivneh et beitech.
Mi yiten chayav, yasimam mitachtaich
mi ka'afar leraglaich yichyeh
mi yohavech od mikol ohavaich
mi mikol ru'ach ra'ah yatzilech
mime'amakim.

Mime'amakim kar'ati elaich boi elai
mul yare'ach me'ir et darkech shuv elai
nifrasu venam'su mul
maga shel yadaich
be'oznaich lochesh sho'el:
Mi zeh kore lach halailah ...

From deep depths I called to you to come to me
with your return the light in my eyes will come back
it's not finished,
I am not leaving the touch of your hands
that it may come and light up/wake upon
hearing the sound of your laugh.

From deep depths I called to you to come to me
the moonlight I will again light your way to me
they're spread out and melted again
the touch of your hands
I whisper, ask in your ears:
Who is it that calls to you tonight - listen
who sings loudly to you - to your window
who put his soul so you'd be happy
who will put his hand and build you your home
who will give his life, put it underneath you
who will be like dust living at your feet
who will love you of all your lovers
who will save you from all evil spirits
from the deep depths.

From deep depths I called to you to come to me
the moonlight I will again light your way to me
they're spread out and melted again
the touch of your hands
I whisper, ask in your ears:
Who is it that calls to you tonight
"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

happy b-day

  • Sep. 7th, 2009 at 9:25 PM
Bilal
The muffled beat of distant music someone celebrates
it's hunting season urbanised I wish I could be there
warmth and laughter the right amount of danger
Johnnie Walker wisdom as Cohen used to say

But it's pouring down with rain
do you remember?
are you alive?
do you still speak of deeds undone?

I used to be immortal I was innocent as a child
my vision was unlimited I saw rivers on the Moon
had important things to say can't remember what they were
of all the things I did, none had been done before

But achievements never last
do you recall?
do you dream?
do you still need company?

I had a friend who knew the language of the future
I'm told he lost his mind they say he went away
navigating empty streets astray among the lost
a shadow in the corner of a stranger's eye

But there's nothing left to learn
do you count the years?
do you breathe?
do you still watch the sunrise?

My ambition took me further than I dreamt
I don't even need a mirror anymore
the penthouse pool is full of ice
it should be flowers winter came too soon

But you never liked to swim
so you feel safe?
are you happy?
do you still know my name?

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"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"
"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

I seem not able to succeed

  • Aug. 13th, 2009 at 11:26 PM
Bilal
to master emotions...
of myself... of others...

is it caring?
is it me, scared of losing control?

probably the last
probably the best for all

i refuse, i resist
i wonder... giving up without a fight
is that the dark side
the shadow lurking
my mind expanding?

innocence bereaft of its throat
its voice, its heart, its soul

no need to prolong the aftermath

silence
"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

Always Never Again

  • Jul. 26th, 2009 at 1:53 PM
Bilal

gij, gij zijt niet goed voor mij
gij ligt een beetje op mijn maag
vindt ge't erg als ik u
gij, gij zijt niet goed voor mij
gij doet mij draaien in mijn hoofd
en ik ben zat dus gij zijt mooier
ik dacht dat gij mij had beloofd
om ni meer in mijne mond te kruipen
blijft met uw fikken van mijn hart
gij legt knopen in mijn stengels
en ik krijg mij niet ontward
en ik begin al scheef te groeien
ik wil water, gene wijn
ik wil eigenlijk alleen maar altijd,
nooit meer bij u zijn

gij, gij zijt niet goed voor mij
gij loopt een beetje uit de maat
en ik ben lui dus gij loopt sneller
maar vindt ge't erg als ik u
gij, gij zijt niet goed voor mij
gij zijt te hoog voor mijne laag
en ik ben arm dus gij zijt gratis
maar vindt ge't erg als ik u vraag
om ni meer in mijne kom te zwemmen
blijft met uw vinnen van mijn lijf
gij draait toerkes tot ik zot word
en als ik straks bovendrijf
wie ga mij dan komen redden
alstublieft Meneer Merlijn
ik wil eigenlijk alleen maar altijd

nooit meer
essemessen
constant stressen
straalbezopen
praat verkopen
maquilleren
imponeren
van u dromen
ni meer komen
liedjes schrijven
bij u blijven
's morgens wallen
weer hervallen
op u botsen
moeten kotsen
discussiëren
niks bijleren
pillen slikken
konten likken
tienmiljoenen
lieve zoenen
naar u kijken
vergelijken
twee paar billen
tijd verspillen
dag en nachten
moeten wachten
ongemakken
bussen pakken
plannen smeden
goeie zeden
onderbroeken
moeten zoeken
wandelingen
u bezingen
komen flemen
afscheid nemen
essemessen
constant stressen
straalbezopen
praat verkopen
maquilleren
imponeren
van u dromen
ni meer komen
liedjes schrijven
bij u blijven
's morgens wallen
weer hervallen
op u botsen
moeten kotsen
discussiëren
niks bijleren
pillen slikken
konten likken
tienmiljoenen
lieve zoenen
naar u kijken
vergelijken
twee paar billen
tijd verspillen
dag en nachten
moeten wachten
ongemakken
bussen pakken
plannen smeden
goeie zeden
onderbroeken
moeten zoeken
wandelingen
u bezingen
komen flemen
afscheid nemen

 

"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

Évszakok

  • Jul. 21st, 2009 at 11:52 AM
Bilal


Volt idő , mikor még nem voltál
S nem éreztem , hogy fájna majd ha nem volnál
És most látod féltelek , őrizlek ,védelek,
Mert lesz idő ,meglehet , hogy nem leszel már.....

Voltak akik szerettek , úgy hiszem
Ma sem tudom, végül miért hagytak el,
De téged mostmár féltelek , szeress úgy ,hogy jó legyen
Őrizz meg , elveszek , ha nem figyelsz rám.....

Változnak az évszakok , rossz idők , szép napok
Bújj hozzám , ne haggy el
Ha én mennék , ne engedj el ,
Változanak az évszakok , jó idők , rossz napok
Bújj hozzám , ne haggy el,
Ha én mennék , ne engedj el.....

Próbáltam másokkal , máshogyan
Ma egyik is , másik is , messze van,
És véletlen úgylehet , de téged már féltelek
Őrizz meg , elveszek , ha nem figyelsz rám....

Változnak az évszakok , rossz idők , szép napok
Bújj hozzám, ne haggy el,
Ha én mennék , ne engedj el,
Változnak az évszakok , jó idők , rossz napok
Bújj hozzám , ne haggy el
Ha én mennék , ne engedj el.....!
"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

A beautiful Disaster

  • Jul. 16th, 2009 at 10:07 PM
Bilal


He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world would cave in
It just ain't right
Lord, it just ain't right

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Lord, would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
But do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold me tight
Baby, hold me tight

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
Waited so long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautiful
Lord, he's so beautiful
He's beautiful
"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

In your light I dive

  • Jul. 14th, 2009 at 9:59 PM
Bilal


I've heard your song
And I've seen the light
In your eyes and it
Took me so long to see
Straight through the night
And through you

The inner eye

You're the depths of my own mind
And you're the heights of my conception
Wait for me

Alone but strong when you're in my sight
Your love hit me like a stroke
Take me with you

Take me to that place
Where I feel so calm
Into your light I dive

I'll take this step
And we'll be one again
I am into this world
A formation of love and you shine
Through me

Into your light
Enter my mind

Mermaid myriad of light
For the morning that comes
For the orchid that grows
Love me against all odds
You defeat the doubt
That would get stuck inside me

wait for me
my light
in which I dive
"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

for auld lang syne

  • Jul. 8th, 2009 at 8:59 PM
Bilal


a heart
shaking by the sight
of my loved one
she shook my confidence
straight forward

I couldn't breath
I couldn't walk
the only thing
I could do
was thinking of her

Those days
will be forgotten
Because I love her
and she
she doesn't even know me

Maybe one day
when I no longer fear
my heartbeat
my breath

Then I will realize
what I've lost

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"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

Magic World

  • Jun. 26th, 2009 at 6:12 PM
Bilal


De wereld is een toverbal,
geen mens weet hoe het worden zal,
maar één ding dat weet iedereen :
je kunt het niet alleen.

refrein:
Dus zullen we er samen iets van moeten waken,
de wereld is een mooi maar bewerkelijk ding.
Dus zullen we er samen iets van moeten maken,
hei, hei, hei, hei, kom maar in de kring.

Bekijk toch eens die wereldkaart,
de mens is toch iets beters waard.
Je ziet dat het een puinhoop is.
Zo gaat het helemaal mis.

We praten zus, we praten zo,
we roepen ach, en wee en oh,
maar wil j'elkaar ooit goed verstaan,
dan doe je er iets aan !

"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

This a-therapy

  • Jun. 18th, 2009 at 11:15 PM
Bilal
this a-therapy called life
an institution orders to forget your most precious moments
to live on
to hold on
to forget your inner heart
written in life's blood
dreams must be forgotten
before the emotion gets too strong to believe in
closed down by walls & rules
made by others unknown
like a ghost strolling around
with nothing to carry along
but your rightful heart
longing for a daybreak
into someone's dreams
faces become forgotten
cuz you have to keep running in the tredmill called life
a-therapy whispers warmth as a self-inflicted wound
play the game & you will get a thing
but not the thing you need the most
your truthful heart
now only a memorie of a past belief
yesterday

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"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

Painters

  • Jun. 18th, 2009 at 9:21 PM
Bilal
Eighty years, an old lady now, sitting on the front porch
Watching the clouds roll by
They remind her of her lover, how he loved her, and of times long ago,
When she used color carelessly, painted his portrait
A thousand times - or maybe just his smile -
And she and her canvas would follow him wherever he would go

'Cause they were painters and they were painting themselves
A lovely world

Oil streaked daisies covered the living room walls
He put water colored roses in her hair
He said, "Love, I love you, I want to give you the mountains, the sunshine,
the sunset too
I just want to give you a world as beautiful as you are to me"

'Cause i'm a painter and I want to paint you
A lovely world

So they sat down and made a drawing of their love, they made it an art to live by
They painted every passion, every home, created every beautiful child
in the winter they were weavers of warmth,
in the summer they were carpenters of love
They thought bluebirds were too sad so they made them yellow

And they were painters, and they had painted themselves
A lovely world

Until one day the rain fell as thick as black oil
And in her heart she knew something was wrong
She went running
through the orchard screaming,
'No God, don't take him from me!'
But by the time she got there, she feared he already had gone
She got to where he lay, water colored roses in his hands for her
She threw them down screaming, 'Damn you man, don't leave me
with nothing left behind but these cold paintings, these cold portraits
to remind me!'

He said, 'Love I only leave a little, try to understand
I put my soul in this life we've created with these four hands
Love, I leave, but only a little, this world holds me still
My body may die now, but these paintings are real'

la,de,die
la,de,die
la,de,die

So many seasons came and so many seasons went
and many times she saw her lover's face watering the flowers,
talking to the trees and singing to his children,
And when the wind blew, she knew he was listening,
and how he seemed to laugh along, and how he seemed to hold her
when she was crying

'Cause they were painters, and had painted themselves
A lovely world

Eighty years, an old lady now, sitting on the front porch
Watching the clouds roll by
They remind her of her lover, how he left her, and of times long ago,
When she used color carelessly, painted his portrait
A thousand times - or maybe just his smile -
And her and her canvas would follow him wherever they would go
Yes, her and her canvas still follow

Because they are painters and they are painting themselves
A lovely world
"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

Si je tombe...

  • Jun. 10th, 2009 at 9:31 PM
Bilal
Si je tombe amoureux, méfiez-vous
Si je meurs dans ton coeur, taisez-vous
S'il pleut
Je veux

We don't like a scapegoat
But we do like ourselves
In a schizophrenic way
Rather than feeling one another
Times, spaces & imagination

Ik heb je nooit liefgehad
Omdat ik je nooit als mijn bezit zag
Regenvlinder



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"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

genetic emancipation

  • May. 25th, 2009 at 9:23 PM
Bilal


Years...
It's been so many years
Resenting the years
In my heredity.

Oh,
I have hated and loved you.
I have hidden behind you.
But I finally see...

You
I've mistaken for destiny,
But the truth is my legacy
Is not up to my genes.

True,
Though the imprint is deep in me,
It will always be up to me.
Up to me.

Ohhh.... free at last.
Ohhh.... Free At Last!

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"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

In Memoriam

  • May. 1st, 2009 at 12:12 PM
Bilal


Loss


Vast outstretched diamond lakes in the sky
The mighty stillness of the mountains
Rain will fall
Maybe forever
Winds of mercy
I hope
Will take me far from this...
...this desolate place

And I fear your love will fade away
And I fear there's no end to this pain
And I fear your heart has turned away
And I fear I won't see you again

And in the night
I often turn to the stars
This diamond lake of tears
And think back
When you and I were one
Under this...
...this desolate sun

And I cry for that broken dream
And I cry for the absence of your love
And I cry for your broken word
And I cry for the loss of your light

- in the season of night let it come that the raven may guard upon thee -
"and when pursued by snow, rain, wind and darkness let it come that i see with the celestial eyes of bright wisdom"
(Tibetan book of the dead)

And I wish your hand were in mine
And I wish that all is not lost
And I hope that whereever you're fine
And I know that I miss you all too much


Just tell me why I miss you

"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

Первые Свидания

  • Apr. 21st, 2009 at 11:09 PM
Bilal
Свиданий наших каждое мгновенье
Мы праздновали, как богоявленье,
Одни на целом свете. Ты была
Смелей и легче птичьего крыла,
По лестнице, как головокруженье,
Через ступень сбегала и вела
Сквозь влажную сирень в свои владенья
С той стороны зеркального стекла.

Когда настала ночь, была мне милость
Дарована, алтарные врата
Отворены, и в темноте светилась
И медленно клонилась нагота,
И, просыпаясь: "Будь благословенна!" -
Я говорил и знал, что дерзновенно
Мое благословенье: ты спала,
И тронуть веки синевой вселенной
К тебе сирень тянулась со стола,
И синевою тронутые веки
Спокойны были, и рука тепла.
А в хрустале пульсировали реки,
Дымились горы, брезжили моря,
И ты держала сферу на ладони
Хрустальную, и ты спала на троне,
И - боже правый! - ты была моя.

Ты пробудилась и преобразила
Вседневный человеческий словарь,
И речь по горло полнозвучной силой
Наполнилась, и слово ты раскрыло
Свой новый смысл и означало царь.

На свете все преобразилось, даже
Простые вещи - таз, кувшин,- когда
Стояла между нами, как на страже,
Слоистая и твердая вода.

Нас повело неведомо куда.
Пред нами расступались, как миражи,
Построенные чудом города,
Сама ложилась мята нам под ноги,
И птицам с нами было по дороге,
И рыбы подымались по реке,
И небо развернулось пред глазами...

Когда судьба по следу шла за нами,
Как сумасшедший с бритвою в руке.

We celebrated every moment of our
First meetings, like an epiphany,
Alone in the entire world. You were
More daring, and lighter than a bird’s wing,
On the stairs, like dizziness,
Running down over the step and leading 
Through the moist lilac to your domain,
From that side of the mirror’s glass.

When night set in, grace was given 
To me, the altar gates 
Were opened, and in the darkness 
Nakedness shined and slowly bowed,
And, waking up: ‘May you be blessed!’
I said and knew, that my blessing
Was audacious: you slept,
And the lilac reached out from the table to touch
Your lashes with the universe’s blue
And the lashes, touched by the blue,
Were calm, and your hand was warm.

While in the crystal, the rivers pulsed,
The mountains smoked, the seas glimmered,
And you held a crystal sphere
On your palm, and you slept on the throne,
And—righteous God!—you were mine.

You woke up and transfigured 
The daily human vocabulary,
And your speech was filled to the throat 
With a full-bodied force, and the word ‘thou’ 
Revealed its new sense and it meant: ruler.

In the world everything was transfigured, even
Simple things—the basin, the jug,—when 
Between us stood, as if on watch, 
The stratified and solid water.

We were led, not knowing where.
Before us stepped out, as if mirages,
Miraculously built cities, 
The mint itself was lying beneath our feet, 
And birds were following the same path as us,
And fish were jumping out along the river,
And the sky opened out before our eyes…

When fate followed behind us on the trail,
Like a madman with a razor in his hand.

Arsenii Tarkovsky

"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

The Tao Told

  • Mar. 29th, 2009 at 8:12 PM
Bilal
A Bond between two loving persons cannot be made undone by someone on their Path

"The Teh is the immortal enemy of the Tao, its feminine aspect.

Heaven and Earth issued from her Gate; this Gate is the Root of their World-Sycamore.

Its operation is of pure Joy and Love, and faileth never."

(6 - Tao Te Ching)


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"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

Egocentric Freedom & Respect

  • Feb. 10th, 2009 at 9:02 PM
Bilal
There is an emptiness in the center of everyone's eye
Selflessness is the act of understanding one's own ego
The beating of the heart shining like a midnight star

Sometimes we forget the reality of others
When they stroll around our emotional borders
Which we don't have if our mind is clear

Let's not forget this human passion
By which we live and learn

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"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"

Kelly Clarkson

  • Dec. 22nd, 2008 at 3:11 AM
Bilal
I recently met a girl who was questioning her marriage.
The last thing I sent her by e-mail was this song.


"Addicted"

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

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"What is left of our world, today
walls are build within our hearts
wars are fought within
The masses follow the masses
The blind will lead the way"